Vulnerability is something that knocks you over and picks you back up, a risk that rewards greatly, a feeling if failed; fuels regret, it is something that requires practice and patience, a key to self love and the love of others. Do you love yourself? I don't yet. But in painting I find myself more everyday and love myself a little more, 'Moxie' is what I need, 'Moxie' is what I want to become, 'Moxie' is what I am.

What does it feel like to have the ability to answer to someone's prayers, to be pushed into the position of deciding someone's emotions, knowing that you can make someone happy at the cost of your own. The feeling in your gut conflicts what seems so perfect externally, you stand between the passage of a wish, weighed down by the examples your life has set for you and the example you want to set for yourself, I am not ready to hold this decision, the vision of my wish does not align with yours and I can't compromise. I can't answer to your prayers, 'I am no god'.